Dumb Worm by Wiggle Worm

When I was a junior in high school, I wrote a poem for English class expressing my hatred for dead fried worms on the sidewalk. I ended up getting an A for the poem. Then last night while I was enjoying a game of Loaded Questions, we were asked to write a poem. So I wrote this one down. Smurf suggested I put this on my blog. Keep in mind that the poem I wrote for class was better than this. Here goes:

Dumb worm frying on the sidewalk;

Doesn’t he know how sick that is;

As he lies there burnt to a crisp.

Yuck!

I hate that dumb worm!

Just to name off a few...

Hey friends! Last year I made a list of things I want to do and experience. I decided to publish this list so that I won't loose it (like I have many time before). If any of you want to do any of these things with me, let me know. I love to do things more than once, so even if the list shows I have already done something it doesn’t mean I won’t want to do it again.

Things I’ve done:

Hiked the Y (5 times)

Tubing down Provo River

Camping with friends

See the SLC temple lights

Played pool

Went ice skating

Went to a smoke-free bowling alley

Hiked all the way up a mountain and back down in one night

Went to a comedy show

Got into some trouble

Hiked up a waterfall

Tried new restaurants

Learned how to change a tire by myself

Went canoeing

Went to a concert

Christmas caroling

Threw a lot of parties

Things I want to do:

Go horseback riding

Snow tubing

Snow boarding

Go on a cruise

Hike the grand canyon (or any canyon)

Planetarium

Watch a play(s)

Read a lot of book I have never read

Play miniature gulf

Go to Lagoon

Go to Seven peaks

Get a massage

Hang glide

Rafting

Fishing

Manti pageant

Throw a lot more parties

Audition for a play

See a shower of shooting stars

Buy a Venus Flytrap

"...Smile that frown away"

"If you chance to meet a frown, do not let it stay, just quickly turn it upside down and smile that frown away."

So I am back, almost. After a few weeks of stress, and depression, I am starting to pull back up. I decided to stop concentrating on the fact that my sister is making some wrong decisions in her life; my mom, who has a blood disease, a bone rotting disease, chronic fatigue, and fibromyalgia; my imperfections; and the fact that my friends are all really super busy with school and boyfriends right now.

I’ve just come to realize (again in my life) that there is nothing I can do to stop all of these things from happening, nothing. These things are there whether I like it or not. And if these things are going to be there no matter what- I might as well be happy.

Monday morning was the turning point for me. I woke up crying from depression (I don’t do that. Ever.) As I was driving to school, I thought to myself, “Self, you can’t be sad in front of the children. You gotta buck up, for them.” With that I said a prayer and asked for these horrible feelings to go away. And I made a conscious effort to be happy. It was hard at first but as we picked the children up one by one, I hugged each of them and told them that I loved being their teacher, and that I thought they were really great. One child said that he wished he was my teacher. Through out the remainder of the day children would just randomly come and give me a hug and tell me that they loved me. My spirit was lifted. I am so grateful for my job and all the children in my life.

Work at the library wasn’t bad for me either, I was shelving books when a co-worker came up to me and greeted me cheerfully. She then expressed how happy she was, and how things were stressful for her but she was going to be happy no matter what. Wow, what a positive attitude. I use to have one of those. I am getting a feel for what it was like to be positive again. I am starting to feel a lot better. Then last night a group of my friends who I care for so much made time out of there busy schedules to hang out with me, it meant a lot to me. I always knew they cared for me, but I allowed myself to get so depressed for so long that I didn't see it. I can see it now though. I would just like to thank my friends, for the words of encouragement, and showing your love. There are no words to express my gratitude. I don’t know why the Lord blesses me with so much, I feel like I don’t deserve it. Anyway, I just want you to know that I am 95% back to my old happy self. There are some left over feelings I am trying to get rid of but by the end of the week I plan on being fully restored, until then, good morning, good afternoon, and good night. ;)

The Day the Smurfs Moved

Today I helped the Smurfs move. Yes, I realize you are wondering how I did this. To accomplish such an unfathomable task I had to called for back up and let me tell you my friends I needed it. With Jokey handing me gift boxes and saying “get ready for a surprise” while I am loading the car with his crates full of toilet paper and other gags, I didn’t even knew existed. Grumpy giving me sass telling me how much he hates to move. Meanwhile, Baker is chasing Greedy because he stole the lunch that Baker was trying so hard to make for us. Harmony and Painter were at it because Harmony was trying to walk across the room while playing his trumpet he bumped into Painters “materpizzas”. >SIGH<

FINALLY, Papa Smurf came along and asked Jokey to stop giving me his special gift boxes, Greedy forcibly gave back the food he took from Baker and Painter realized that Harmony bumping into him made and actual improvement to his “masterpizza”. Papa Smurf told Vanity he could keep his hand mirror out of the box if he stayed out of the bathroom so we could pack his stuff. Then Papa asked Smurfette to pick a bouquet of pink flowers for the new house, so Toasteroven could help me. Boy was I glad Papa Smurf showed up. I thought I was going to go crazy with all the chaos that was going on.

Anyway, we got the Smurfs safely moved and they are happily living in their new surroundings. Even though it was a hard task to move the Smurfs, I am going to miss having the Smurfs live so close to me. With their smurfy smurf song: “tra-la-lala-la-la-lala-la-la….” But, it’s not the end of the world, I do know where they live and Papa Smurf said I could come and visit anytime I wanted. And that makes me so smurf happy I could throw up. The End.

A Start of a New Year

Happy New Year! As I look back over the last year, events that happened to me, friends I made, friends that have left and moved on, family, and myself growth; I realize I have grown up a lot. Last year I had some hard things I had to face and endure. I remember wanting to give it all up. Not necessarily "off myself" but simply give up. I wished I could just go to sleep and wake up when things got better. Now, looking back on it, I realize I could have had it a lot worse, but, I thought I could not survive the things I was going through. However, my Heavenly Father blessed me with a great family, amazing friends and a ward that helped me get through my trials. I found that going through the things I did, helped me with myself confidence, and my out look on life. I now see that without those trials, I wouldn't have the faith and trust in my Heavenly Father that I do now. I know that he loves me and wants the best for me.

Don't go thinking I had a total and complete awful year, because I didn't. I went to my first concert, the Barenaked Ladies, with a guy who is now one of my best friends. I also survived an avalanche at Bridal Veil Falls with my friends, celebrated Chocolate day. Threw a lot of great parties; went tubing down the Provo River; got a promotion at a job I absolutely love, and got a second job that I have been wanting for over a year and half now. I was also introduced to the 100 hour board (by the way there are many intelligent and wonderful people writing for the board and I am glad to have them as my friends).

I am grateful for what I went through and wouldn’t trade any of my experiences for anything. Overall, seeing the outcome of the year 2004 in my life, I would say I had a really great year. I feel that some big changes are about to take place in my life. I am somewhat cautiously optimistic about how these changes will affect me but I look foreword to see what this year has to offer me. And I would just like to say, "Bring it on!"