Happy Birthday!

Approximately one year ago I started this blog. I would like to thank everyone who has made it possible for my blog to be alive during this very special time of year. The time of year we celebrate the holidays and the birth and life of this blog. If it wasn’t for you it would not be what it is today. You have spiced it up with your comments and advice. I plan on continuing this blog and making it an interesting read for my fellow friends.

I decided to change my background. I would love your opinion.

Time

Here is a poem I wrote when I was in High School for a poetry assignment. It's kind of sad to admit that this is one of my best. Oh well, it's not like I am going to become a professional poet or anything.

TIME

Anytime you look about
Time is running out
People rushing to and fro
Time is fast and time is slow
Do your Homework! Do you Chores!
Time is running out your doors!
Hurry! Hurry! Faster! Faster!
Time can almost be your master
STOP!
I must go slow
I do not always have to go.
I sit, I rest, I spectulate,
Oh my goodness I'll be late
Rushing, rushing like a fool!
Learn to organize your time,
Rushing, rushing is a CRIME!

-Wiggle

I'll Let You Slide This Time

Dear Jokey Smurf,

Now, now Jokey Smurf, you know very well that it isn’t polite to hack onto someone else’s blog and rise amuck. I had a talk with Papa Smurf and he says you have gotten out of control lately with your pranks. He quite frankly put in so many words, “Jokey is being a royal pain the smurf, and I am sick of him and his pranks!” I realize that Papa Smurf must be under a lot of stress with all of the complaints and that are coming from the others Smurfs about your concoctions of gift-wrapped boxes that explode in their faces.

Just the other day you sent a package to Smurfett with a note saying: “To Smurfett. From your Smurfiest Secret Admirer.” Smurfett was flattered to have gotten such a present that when she opened it instead of getting a lovely gift she received an exploding one. Heartbroken, distraught and after having it up to here with the endless stream of jokes you do, she complained once again to Papa Smurf.

All of the Smurfs are in uproar about your wild behavior and demands that Papa Smurf needs do something about this soon. Probably the only smurf that doesn't care is Slouchy Smurf and he's not even sticking up for you. Unfortunately, I had no idea you were this out of control so when I saw Papa Smurf’s livid reaction, I was shocked. He threatened to send you straight to Gargamel. Brainy thought Papa Smurf's idea was a wonderful one and was coming up with a list of ideas to get you into the arms of Gargamel.

After talking with Papa Smurf and helping him realize that giving you to Gargamel was a little too harsh of punishment (because let’s face it you keep the other Smurf’s on their toes). He decided that a warning this time will be suitable. But the next time you get out of control he won’t be so generous. So if I were you I would lie low for a bit, until everyone has time to cool down. So ye are warned. Don’t mess with me or you’ll get it.

Sincerely,

Wiggle

Smurf is SOOO COOOL

I just want to say that Smurf is the coolest person in the world and he is so good at Scrabble and anyone who is so lucky and that's such a great treat for them. And also that he is handsome and a good dresser and a clever boy and a terrific writer and everybody wants to be around him. Oh, that I were half as awesome as Smurf. I think he deserves a candy bar from everybody who reads this.

Hehe and I also want to say that Wiggle should not leave her blog page open when Jokey Smurf is around. Hyuck hyuck!

Sounds Familiar

I found this poem in a book I was shelving today at the library. When I read it I laughed because this is exactly something that would happen to me.

A Million Miles from Tallahassee

I was so sure

I knew the capital of Florida

I almost threw my elbow out of joint

waving my hand

in front of Mr. Miller’s face.

When he called on me

I jumped up and said,

“Tassalooma!”

I thought they’d never stop laughing.

Jerome practically

fell out of his seat.

Even Mr. Miller lost it.

Now everybody’s always aking me,

“How are things in Tassalooma?”

And Maria the comedian said,

“Let’s rent a room

in Tassalooma.”

And if I could go to Tassalooma-

which is nowhere

on anybody’s map-

I’d never

come

back!

-Alice Schertle

Well, even though this exact thing didn't happened to me, I've had similar experinces.

Life is funny that way.

We come down to life and are born to parents who may or may not know what they are doing. For some of them they have no idea what it is like to raise a child. It’s a lot of responsibility and work.

As infants we learn how to eat, how to walk and say a word or two. Not knowing what is going on in our world. There we were crying when mommy or daddy can’t be seen (even if they are just in the other room); always falling on our face because our chubby little legs and our diaper makes it awkward to move. Then there were our attempts of moving our mouth and having noise come out but never making any sense. We were so happy and proud of ourselves.

Then it is on to our toddler years. Were we seized every adventure that is laid before us. Fearless, we were as toddlers. Climbing any bookshelf or cupboard we could get away with. Learning what the word “no!” meant. Spilling and dropping anything we could get our little hands on. We would think of amusing little games: drop mom’s key, watch her pick them up, and then drop them just when she sat back down; then laughing at mom getting increasingly irritated until she wouldn’t give us back the keys. What little imps we were. We were Potty training and afraid of the dark, learning to say “no” to our moms or dads. Then we would constantly throw temper tantrums and sometimes getting what we wanted and sometimes getting ignored. By then life was getting more complicated.

Kindergarten age is when our personality was mostly developed. We loved to run, skip, and gallop. Climb trees, and talk in sentences. Some of us having lisp some us not know what it meant to talk quietly. We were becoming a little more independent, helping mom sweep the floor with a little broom she bought for us. Making friends, and sometimes no one else could see them but that didn’t matter because they were your friend and no one else could steal them from you. Mostly, our biggest stress was when mom tried to put us into bed. And we would run though out the house screaming while she is chasing us with our pajamas in hand (kind of like a Calvin and Hobbes comic). Parents instill good manners in to us. School was just a place were we went and played all day without mom and dad watching us. Play with play dough, blocks, had story time, learned out ABC’s and 123’s. Circle time and time out. When we would fall or smashed our finger in the door, we just knew Band-Aids were for every boo-boo, because they healed everything. Dressing ourselves and not caring if we matched or if our clothes were inside out. What mattered most is we did it all by ourselves.

By the time we were in grade school were we forgot about our imaginary friends (mostly), and started having more real friends. We start questioning if Santa was real or not, and knowing the tooth fairy was in fact real because she left some money under your pillow the night before. Happy that the song “All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth” actually applied to you. Starting to read chapter books and participating in Summer Reading at the local city library. Having homework and sometimes liking it but sometime hating it because it meant you might have to miss your favorite TV show. We had report cards, and receiving and an “E” for excellent, “S” for satisfactory, or an “N” for needs to improve, and “U” for unsatisfactory. Monkey bars and parks were our delight. Ice cream and candy were all we wanted to live on but mom and dad wouldn’t let us. Swimming lessons, tee-ball, soccer, and extra fun summer activities we got to look forward to. More responsibility we had when we were baptized and excited about it. Still whinny, but we knew when to stop when mom gave “the look”. Barbie and GI-Joe were our favorite toys.

In middle school most of us put away those silly toys and started playing video games and reading magazines. We hated school and especially homework. Some of us had lockers and that was cool. Friends you had in grade school were no longer your friend, because things…well, they changed. Some of us were popular, and others were over looked. Everyone trying to find out who they were and how they wanted express that. Our major stress mostly was whether or not we were accepted. Sometimes to fit in we would start to rebel against our parents. That is probably about the time we found out that being grounded wasn’t fun. Some of us were on the honor role and others were in detention.

High school is where we started to get our first jobs, date, drive, and became more and more independent. Our parents didn’t understand what it was like to be in high school at that time. Pressure on looking forward to our future was put on us. Students were taking A.P. classes and seminary. Skipping classes, drama was running ramped through the halls, and crushes here and there. People would go around having boyfriends and girlfriends; breakup and makeup and then breakup again. Fashion was starting to become more important to some and other could’ve cared less. Still trying to fit in was important to some and others were comfortable being themselves. Making friendship and knowing they would last, then when graduating realizing life wouldn’t allow it. Say good-bye to those who were with you though all of your hard times, and growing up together. There were parents who still loved you no matter how rebellious you might have been. Teachers who helped you realize you could do the assignments if you just applied yourself.

After high school you had to let go of some of your friendships, moved out and live on your own. Some went to college and some didn’t. Some served missions and others got married and already have two kids and one on the way. Pressure of what you are going to do with the rest of your life come from all angles. Church Callings, work, bills, school, social life or lack there of. All of it seems overwhelming. We are expected to take what we learned from our parents, leaders, mentors, teachers and friends and apply it to our life. Everyone has a purpose and were are suppose to know what that is and do it. And yet at the same time remain balanced and in control of things. While we are doing this we are also expected to lift and help those along the way. Help build the Kingdom of God and stand tall in the eyes of the Lord. How can we do this?

Well, I don’t know all the answers and I don’t know if you were taught this while you were growing up or not, and really that doesn’t matter because I am telling you now. If you love the Lord with all of your heart, mind and soul you will find it easy to follow His commandments. You won’t have to question his motives for giving a certain commandment you would just be able to trust in Him. And if you are doing His will you’ll find that you are already serving others and helping the people around you in ways you might not being aware of at this time.

All I can say is that everything we went through in our lives, whether is was good or bad experiences there was something that you were supposed have to learned that might help you now or in your life in the future. If we are all striving to do what is right, all the other things that we have yet to endure and learn won’t be as bad. Yes, we will still have to be tested and pulled out of our comfort zone but that is just so we can be there for others; and so we as individuals can be proud of whom we are becoming. We are not alone and that in it’s self is a comforting thing. Remember everything has its purpose and in time we will see and understand what that purpose is.

I guess that’s all I really have to say. These are just my thoughts. Until next time, keep your chin up.

Wiggle

What Was I Thinking?!

Why is it that when things seem to be going great for me I have to go mess them up? Why do I analyze things that shouldn’t or doesn’t need analyzing to begin with? I am always reading into things. Even when I make an effort to not do this I catch myself doing it anyway. I hate this curse! I never seem to get piece of mind about things. How can I stop? I feel I am going crazy. Oh well.

So...yea.

Well my fellow blog people, I am going to be going home Sunday. My little sister is coming tomorrow and me and my roommates are throwing her a bridal shower on Saturday. I have the best roommates ever.
I am super excited to seem my sis. I love her a whole lot. Then it is off to NM. I am excited to see my mom and dad. They are so great. I love my family.
Two weeks though, I hope I come back in one piece. I will post when I get a chance, if I get a chance. Until then I hope you all have a wonderful 4th on July.

Book Drop

Yesterday started out with beautiful summer weather. The sun was out, the birds were chirping, and I am sure if you listened close enough you could here the earth humming the happiest tune. That is what the weather was like when I went into work.

Work was fine no problems whatsoever. I worked double shift there at the library, and didn’t even care. I am sure if you listened close enough you could hear me humming the happiest tune. Life was great. Then, something in the air begun to change and it wasn’t good.

Everyday at 4 o’clock we have to check the book drop here at the library. It’s not bad, it’s just a thing. But about 3 o’clock it started to thunder and lightning, and the wind began to blow. I was shelving books and kept looking out the window, in dread. “Please don’t let it rain until after book drop” I would pray. I didn’t being a jacket or anything because, well, I already told you what the weather was like earlier. I continue to shelve my cart of books, the lights in the library flickered (really, they did). Kind of hoping the power would go out completely so I could go home early was entertaining my thoughts. I turn around to get some more books from my cart and to my surprised there is a person standing right behind me. I gasped in horror. “Are you ready to do book drop?” the mysterious voice asked. I turned around and it was just my co-worker, kind of relived and at the same time disappointed (because if it was someone scarier it would have made a better story). I look at my watch and realized it was 4. I nodded. “Let’s do this book drop before it starts to rain.” Lisa, my co-worker, pointed towards the window “I already to see raindrops on the window.” As I looked I felt the whole earth crashing down on me. It had just barely started to rain and it was still slow. “Well, then, lets hurry before it starts to pour.” The wind blew harder as if it were replying to what I had said.

We got the empty book drops so we could switch them with the full ones outside. I asked Lisa, “Do you think we will need the tarps?” (That is what we put on the books to keep them dry while we are outside) She opens the door to check, and it is already raining harder than what it was two minutes ago. “I think we will need them,” she says. I sigh audibly, “Alright, well lets get this done fast before it gets worse.”

So we both took a deep breath and went out into the elements and up to the book drop. As soon as we go to the book drop, totally disposed, no shelter near by, a cloud burst and rain started to beat down on our bodies. Trying to frantically to switch the empty book cart with the full one, I noticed Lisa was having and difficult time with hers. The book cart was overloaded and books were spilling out. So, while I was helping her pick up the books A guest of wind picked up, with the rain and wind combined it felt like bits of glass was beating against our face. The wind picked up one of the tarps and blew it into the middle of the street. I was laughing so hard because my only other option would be to cry and I didn’t have time for that. I started to chase the tarp and finally caught up to it. While I was running back to help Lisa the full book cart fell and the books spilled out on to the ground. And if you didn’t think it could rain harder, well, let me tell you something, it did. It was like someone was playing a cruel joke on us and just laughing his brains out just watching us running around frantically picking up the books that were lying in the middle of the parking lot and chasing the tarps because they were flying everywhere.

Finally, we picked up the books and ran to take shelter. We got inside was greeted with hysterical laughter, as we stood there at the door catching our breath looking like we've been to hell and back. Co-workers were pointing there fingers laughing at our expense. It was humiliating and I was cold. Soaking up what little pride I had I dragged the cart to the counter and start to unload it. Finally a girl replied through her tears of laughter “If only I had known you were going out, we have extra jackets.” Lisa and I exchanged looks, and both knowing that bit of information would have been nice to know. We spent the rest of the hour drying the books that got wet and discarding the ones that were ruined. Finishing my shelving in my soaked clothes, as children and parents looked at me as if I were some part of a freak show. I soldiered on.

Yes, it is important for me to note that the rain pretty much stopped as soon as we got inside. I am fairly convinced someone up there is out to get me. Story of my life, what else can I say.

It's time for some change!

I look at my life now at who I am and compare to where and who I was two years ago. I have changed a great deal. My eyes have been opened, my self-esteem has gone up. My way of thinking has changed, and my out look on things is different.

I wonder what I would be like now if I hadn’t moved here to Provo. If I hadn’t met the people I’ve met. If I hadn’t experienced the things I have. Would I have found myself in a different way through different people than what I did here? Or would I have just stayed stagnant in my life “happy” but not really knowing how much happier I could be?

Why is it that I had to move to find happiness, and joy when I thought I already had it? Why have I met the people I did? Why do I live with the roommates I live with? Did I have as much of an influence on my friends and acquaintances as they all have had on me?

I guess I feel I am at a crossroad in my life. Something needs to happen so I can feel more joy and happiness. Whether I move to a different place, finish school, make more friends… I don’t know... suddenly I woke up one day and realized life is great, but I need to keep moving forward. There is something out there that I need to do. Something or someone I need to be a part of. I don’t know what that is.

My mom’s health is getting worse. And she has on numerous occasions asked me to move back to be with her. I love my mother and love being around her. Plus with her health declining like it is it makes me want to spend as much time with her as I can. I always tell her “no mom, I am not moving back.” And she always says she understands, but I still feel guilty sometimes.

It’s like; a part of me wants to pick up everything I own pack it into the car and leave. Just so I can go take care of my mom. She needs me, and with my dad working full time and my sister moving out (she’s getting married) I would be able to help her around the house and take her to her doctor appointments, and just spend what precious time I have with my mom. Of course Farmington New Mexico is this dinky little town with no LDS peers to hang out with or good promising opportunity for me. But why should I be so selfish and only think of myself? Plus, my dad says “We have pre-schools and a library there in Farmington, you can get a job here.”

While the other part of me feels that I shouldn’t move back because of those reasons. I really like were I am. I love my jobs and I love my friends (even though they are slipping through my fingers like sand- because they are moving on with there lives) and I love the independence I have here. I love living life on my own. I know it might sound kind of selfish but I really don’t want to move back home. So I don’t think I will.

But then if I think about it. I could go anywhere I want to. I could move some where strange and new and finish school there. I don’t have to stay here. All of my roommates are going to be moving out soon and I’m super tight with them. But after they move, then what, I guess the sky is the limit. I’ve never been to the east coast, maybe I will go there or how about Washington? I guess I will have to decide what school I want to go to and just plan around that. Finish my degree in Early Childhood Ed start my career. Now that would be darn sensible!

I still have a lot to consider and figure out, and I am pretty sure I am not going to be moving tomorrow or anything. But you never know. I have become quite spontaneous and you never know what I might do next. Bumbum-bummmm!

Little Boy Blue

This is one of my favorite pomes. I know it is sad, but honestly, what are your thoughts and feelings?

The little toy dog is covered with dust,
But sturdy and stanch he stands;
And the little toy soldier is red with rust,
And his musket moulds in his hands.
Time was when the little toy dog was new,
And the soldier was passing fair;
And that was the time when our Little Boy Blue
Kissed them and put them there.

"Now, don't you go till I come," he said,
"And don't you make any noise!"
So, toddling off to his trundle-bed,
He dreamt of the pretty toys;
And, as he was dreaming, an angel song
Awakened our Little Boy Blue---
Oh! the years are many, the years are long,
But the little toy friends are true!

Ay, faithful to Little Boy Blue they stand,
Each in the same old place---
Awaiting the touch of a little hand,
The smile of a little face;
And they wonder, as waiting the long years through
In the dust of that little chair,
What has become of our Little Boy Blue,
Since he kissed them and put them there.

--Eugene Field

Inconceivable!

Well my dearest friends, I have read “The Princess Bride” and I loved it. I could not put it down. I would read it while I was walking to work, on my breaks, every chance I got I would read it.

I have always loved the movie, but have had some questions about the characters, details of the fire swamp, etc. Let me tell you my fellow readers, the book answered all of my questions! I even love the book more than the movie. Yes, it’s true.

You have got to read it. If you have read it, let me know what you thought. We could have something in common… unless you hated it. Then, of course we wouldn’t… well, except for the fact that we both read it…yeah, anyway...

Oh, and I am going to start reading “1984” next, heard it was good, so naturally, I bought it.

If any of you have any good recommendations of books you think I should read, let me know about them, and I will try getting my hands on the book.

Less than a month and the new Harry Potter will be out in stores! Can’t wait for that one! It will be great. I know it.

Is it just me, or is it just me?

Today I went on a lunch date with one of my friends. He was going on a double date and asked me out. The date was enjoyable we both had a really great time together. I was very flattered he had thought of me. No, I don’t have a crush on him, and I know he is does not have a crush on me, but it was still nice to go on a date. I am embarrassed to admit this, but, it has been a long time since I have been on a date, and it got me thinking, dating is fun. Even something as simple as lunch date, was wonderful.

Sometimes, I get tired of being just “one of the guys”. Don’t get me wrong, I love my friends, every single one of them. I think it is great that they can be comfortable around me and not have to worry about impressing me. But, sometimes I just wish a guy would actually be attracted to me for once.

I realize I am not all that good-looking (I’d probably rate myself a 4 or 5 on a scale of 1-10) but I am not hideous either. I do have a fun personality, you know, out-going, spontaneous at times, open-minded and nice. I’m not high-maintenance, and a guy doesn’t have to impress me with extravagant gifts and meaningless flattery. And I don’t think I come across as stupid (perhaps silly at times, but not stupid). I try to live a good life and keep my priorities in order. So what is it about me that I can change to make a guy look my way? Or instead of change what should I enhance.

I am not by all means desperate. I don't think it would be a good idea to change who I am to get guys to notice me (besides I kind of like who I am). And to be honest I really don’t mind being single, really. You know, it is not that I’m afraid of asking guys out on dates (I've done that many times) it’s just… I wouldn’t mind getting asked to go on a date once in a while... more often. That’s all.

All Good Things Must Come To An End

Well, after counting down for the last two months, school is finally over. No more kids yelling, crying, whining, tattling, hitting, kicking, punching, biting. No more runny noses, pulling hair, lying, stealing. No more, “Teacher, he hit me!” or “I need to go potty teacher!” Or “She’s not sharing!” And definitely no more “I want my mommy!”

I woke up this morning not as excited as I had anticipated. I was kind of sad. Here I have spent about 8 or 9 months with these kids, 6 ½ hours a day four day a week being there when their parents can’t. I shared their hardships with them and I would empathize with them. When they fell they would come to me, when their feelings were hurt I was there to cheer them up, I played with them, I would enter into their imaginary world with them and we’d get lost just goofing off and being kids, I was their friend when they thought they had none. I helped them learn manners, ABCs, 123s, how to write their name. I helped teach them how to jump, skip, tiptoe, gallop, and balance (I know, Wiggle, teach kids how to balance?). I taught them how to treat there friends with respect, how to accept others, and how to become independent, I taught them how to laugh at themselves when they were sad, and that, it is okay to make mistakes, and most important, love who they are.

As I sat there watching the children sing to their parents today, I was so proud of them. They have come such a long way. I tried my hardest to swallow the lump that sat in my throat. Sitting outside on a bench watching the children laugh and play with the friends they made this year. Sarah ran up to me and threw her arms around me and gave me the biggest hug. This is a daily occurrence she always gives me hugs like that. But today was different the hug she gave me was extra long and tight, realizing that this would be the last day she might see me, (unless I see her in the grocery store or something). She then smiled and ran off to play; I sat there and cried, trying not to make a big scene, because kids don’t like to see their teacher cry.

Parents were there with their kids and were taking pictures of me with their child. I love every single child in my class and am going to miss them. The sad part is that in few months I won’t be in their minds anymore. In a couple of years they won’t even remember me. I will move on and have more kids to teach, and eventually, this whole year will be forgotten.

On the way home I spent time with each child laughing and playing and joking around with them, and hugged each one.

They reminded me that I was ready to let them go as some tattled, hit, and argue on the way home.

So, in a way it’s kind of a bitter sweet experience.

It was an awesome year and I hope I won't forget some of the things the kids taught me. But, I am glad I don’t have to wake up in the morning at 6am. It will be nice to sleep in.

End Your Day With a Splash

Today I went for a walk in the rain. I invited my roommate to come along with me but she wasn’t too thrilled about getting wet and cold. Although I would have liked the company, I decided to go by myself.

It was wonderful walking in rain. I splashed in every puddle. The puddles were perfect for splashing; the water came up to my ankles. The cold water tickled my feet with numbness. I went for a walk around the neighborhood; a few people gave me some weird looks. I am pretty sure they were just jealous that I was out having fun and they weren’t. I talked to a few people who were out taking sensible walks with their umbrellas. There was a group of people eating dinner and watching the rain on their porch. I talked to them too. By then I was soaked. When I started getting the chills I decided to start walking back toward the house.

It was on the way back when I noticed the worms in puddles. My usual feelings of hatred and disgust were starting to stir in me. I mean think about it, pretty soon they would be cooked to a crisp, and I would have to look at there dead little bodies. SICK!

I stopped for a little while and watched the worm stretch itself as long as he could and just float peacefully, enjoying himself. And I believe it was then when I realized, that worms really aren’t that bad, (I can’t believe I am saying this) they just get so caught up in the excitement and pleasure of being out in the rain that by the time the sun comes up to burn them to a brittle little corpse, they have end their life in happiness(assuming they enjoy sizzling in the sun) .

So it should be with us: no matted how hard we have to work in the dirt and grime of the world there will always be a good rainstorm to make us clean, we just need to take the time to appreciate it. When the sun comes up we are ready for whatever comes next. Whether we make it back to the grass or not, it doesn’t matter because we worked hard, and enjoyed life when we could.

I came home drenched from the refreshing rain, made grilled cheese and tomato soup, took a hot shower and read a book. It was a perfect day.

And I think the next time I see a dead fried worm on the sidewalk, I don’t think I will have those strong negative feelings I normally have (I might be grossed out a little), but, I think some of those feeling will be replaced with more positive feeling.

I am actually greatful to be reminded that I should always look for the deeper side of things no matter how silly it sounds.

Creepy Library Patron

Today was just like any other day... actually it wasn't. My kids were driving me up the wall and I was glad to be able to go to work at the library, where I could wind down.
Work at the library is always really nice after working with kids all day. When I am working at the library all I have to do is put books in order, it's quite and I don't have to deal with patrons (I just direct them to the reference librarians). Well, being extra grateful that I didn't have to deal with people today, I just wasn't in the mood, I went on my way to work.
Now, I must say, that I am getting pretty good at putting books in order and shelving them. We have to keep record of how many books we shelve and how long it takes us and I'm proud to brag that I am doing better than I would have expected myself to do and still improving. So, I just expected for work to go by fast and steady and then to be off by 7, to do whatever the heck I wanted to do. This is how I wanted the rest of my day to go and what I had looked forward to. Little did I know what was a typical bad day would quickly become the weirdest most awkward day I have ever experienced in a long time.

So there I was in the video section minding my own business shelving my cart of videos, when I came to an aisle with a patron in it. Admittedly I was annoyed that I would have to work around him, but I pressed on. Finally it came to point where he was right in front of the shelf I needed to file some videos. I kind of stood there next to him hoping he would get the hint, and when he didn’t I decided to go to the cart and skip that aisle until he was gone. I tuned around and there was that man standing right there in a sort of creepy and awkward way. He was about 5’9” stout-looking with facial hair (it was longer than a five 0'clock shadow but not quite a beard) I would guess he was in his mid thirties. He then asked me, “Can I ask you a question discreetly?” Taken back by such a strange question I hesitantly said, “I guess.” He took me down an aisle where there was no one around to over hear him. He looked me in the eye, with sweat on his brow, in a low voice he said, “I am looking for a video that will show me how to… you know, be intimate with your wife. Can you help me?”

Is this guy for real?! Why does he have to ask me that?! First off this is a public library in Utah and I seriously doubt there would be a video showing you how to be intimate with your wife! “I am not sure we do sir, but I am sure if you ask a reference librarian they would be happy to help you find what you need.”

“But I am so embarrassed, please, please, help me just this once.”

Why did I have to have this patron today? As I wondering if he was being perverted or if he was really embarrassed, I thought I would humor him. “Sure” I said cautiously.

So I went to library catalog to see if we carried any videos on “intimacy”, and wondered why he couldn’t do this himself.
I was of course right, there was no such video, so I looked up some books on the subject and wrote them down so he could look for them if he so desired.

I took it to him and explained to him “sir, we do not have any videos on the subject, I have however, found some books on the subject, but because I am not entirely sure what you want to know I am sure if you look in the general area where these books are you will find what you need. I again urge you to refer to a reference librarian they are more qualified than I am to help you find what you need.”

“Well, what I am looking for is, well, I’ll just tell you, see, my wife is Pregnant,”

Doesn’t he get the hint; I don’t want to help him.

He continues, “she is big and well, she wants some… and… well, I don’t know how to give it to her.”

WHY ME!!! I don’t want to know this, I don’t even know him! “Well, sir, I am sure the library does have books on that topic, but I strongly recommend you asking a reference librarian for help, they would know how to locate what you are looking for.”

So I went back to shelving, it was quite awkward, but he kept standing there.

“You know what I wish they had more of; I wish they had more movies of children being abducted.”

What?? Why is he still talking to me!? He went on about how he was a detective some years back and how his daughter was abducted and it took a long time to find her, now they keep in touch through email.

Random! And again who freaking cares?!!

THEN, if you don’t think this is crazy enough yet wait until I tell what he told me next.

“you know what, I am going to tell you something, I going to tell you this because you are a women, and women have a way of getting the word around,”

Oh great what else is this moron going to tell me?

“Lately women have been getting raped.”

Lord help me.

“Yeah, women have been getting raped, by highways and in parking lots; it has been happening a lot. A woman could be having car problems and when she goes to check her car there would be a man hiding under the car and when she gets close enough he cuts her Achilles tendon, pushes her in to a car or van and rapes her. I don’t why guys get aroused by that, I know that kind of thing doesn’t arouse me.”

He then went on for some time telling me I should never park by vans or cars with tinted window and how I should always park where there is light because men are afraid of light (I was getting really creeped out). He continued to tell me of the time his brother was being mugged and how he threw up on the attacked and the attacker was so discussed that he went way and advised me to throw up if I am ever getting raped because that might make the man go away.

With that being said I retorted “well, logged and noted” hoping he would get the hint and leave.
Finally, he did.

“Well, I guess I will go and look for these books you suggested.”

“Yeah, good luck with that.”

“Thanks”

Yeah whatever!

Can I just say how much I hated that whole thing!! Why did I have to experience that? Why!! Why did that guy fill the need to tell me about his sex life and how he couldn’t give it to his wife? Why did he go into detail about that whole rape thing? WHY!!!!

I don’t know if this guy was for real or if he was being a pervert. All I do know is that I am not getting paid enough to deal with this kind of crap. How would you guys feel if this happened to you? What would you guys do? Am I the only one who thinks this not normal for a first conversation?

There you have it my friends, another horrible day that I, Wiggle, had to endure. Until next time, I hope you have a wonderful day.

The time of my life

Well friends, I just got back from the most perfect get away I have ever been on. I went on a road trip to Napa California, with Smurf, BamaBeau and Nestor. Every trip has its up and downs, right? Well, not this trip it was all up for me. Perfect.

Yes, I did fall about 3-4 times, yes we got pulled over for having only one head light on, yes, it did rain in Napa (and it was wonderful), and yes we did have to pull over along side the road because of car problems (Nestor accidentally put the car in neutral and was wondering why the car was acting weird). But to be perfectly honest, I would have been sad if none of these things happened. All of these mishaps made the trip even more interesting and great.

If you want a play-by-play I left that up to Smurf, because he is a whole lot better with his words than I am. So, be sure to read his blog.

I am from New Mexico, born and raised. Beautiful New Mexico, lots of bluffs and a whole lot of browns and some sage green, with beautiful skies. Now, I live in Utah, still some brown, but more green and huge mountains. The ways the clouds rest on the mountains are mystifying, and captivating. Having only been to Colorado, Utah, and Arizona, I was astounded at how beautiful Napa was.
I can honestly say that I have never seen such lush, deep, vibrant colors of green in one place in all of my life. Sure I have been to Los Angles when I was younger, but at that age I was just interested in the big buildings and Disneyland, probably didn’t even pay attention to the nature then.

Thursday we went for a hike on some of the hills there in Napa, the assortment of trees, the lush grass, the sweet-smelling air and over looking the vineyards, seeing the mustard plant for the fist time was just perfect. I was speechless, words could not come to mind the only thing I could mange to say were; wow, beautiful, amazing, and cool, which were all small words for what I really thought and felt.
As we went throughout our site seeing, driving, and exploring I was never tried of riding in the car with the windows rolled down and the wind blowing through my hair and just observing nature. The weather was just right. The overcast days, and the warm sunny days, all of it was great.
Spending time with my friends joking around, talking and just getting along so well, was my favorite, thing. No matter what we were doing we were having fun, I wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.

Finally Sunday came and we were going to the beach. Excited, because I had only been to the beach once or twice my whole life, I was too little remember it very much and what it was like, I had anticipated for the moment of seeing the sunset on the ocean. We arrived at a viewpoint just in time to see the sun setting, hearing the waves crashing and the smell of the ocean was overwhelming. I felt at peace and as I sat there watching the flawless painting God had painted, my gratitude for nature was starting to overflow inside of me. How is it that people say there is no God when he put signs of himself in nature? Observing and being aware of nature one can feel His presence, His love he has for us.
After taking the sacrament on the beach (that was interesting, refer to Smurf’s blog), and absorbing my surroundings, I was appreciative that I was able to go on this vacation; and wondered why in the world did I ever considered not going. Later that night I couldn’t fall asleep so Nestor and I sat on a cliff watching the ocean below us just talking about life and the gospel. I am glad I got to know her better. I am happy I got to know BamaBeau and Smurf more. I can not put into words how thankful I am for my friends; they are the greatest (if you think I am just saying that because I am their friends, you really have got to meet them for yourself). I hope I am as good of friend to them as they are for me.
I needed this vacation, and I am kind of sad I have to go back to reality and be responsible and all that jazz. Yuck!

So, yeah, that’s my version of California for you. I realize this post might have sounded cheesy or boring, if only I was a more talented writer. Someday, I want to move up to Napa; but that won’t be for a few more years, if everything goes to plan.

I just want everyone to know: I am NOT a vegetarian, I am a librarian.

Here is my side of our (D, Smurf & BamaBeau) trip to the One World Café.

Saturday night BamaBeau, Smurf, and D and I were all hanging out, you know, talking and just enjoying each others company. We got on the subject of what we were going to do since we had it Monday off. BamaBeau came up with the idea of going to Salt Lake. We were all excited about the idea, and wondered what we wanted to do. BamaBeau then excitedly told us about this wonderful hippy-like restaurant that he loved and said we would all love it too. To be perfectly honest he was so excited and talking so fast I didn’t know what he was saying, but when I heard the words vegetarian and hippy. I was scared. That’s when I spoke up, I said, “wait, did you just say vegetarian?”

“Yes, doesn’t it sound wonderful, Wiggle?”

“No. I like meat”

“Oh, don’t worry they have chicken.”

With that being said, I thought as long as they had some sort of meat I will be fine. BamaBeau went on to describe this “wonderful” place, while deep inside I was worried.

Sunday came and went and before I knew it we were all packed in my car heading our way to Salt Lake City. BamaBeau told me to go ahead and park, and we could walk to rest of the way. So we were all walking, I was still nervous, but BamaBeau excitement had absorbed into me. Finally, I heard BamaBeau said earnestly “there it is!!” My heart sank. There we stood outside an old building that blended so well with the other buildings it didn’t even look like a restaurant; in fact, I wouldn’t be surprised if used to a thrift store. A sloppy painted, old wooden sign was propped up on the sidewalk that said, “One World Café”. The windows had sweat on them. Right then I knew that what my friend had described was nothing I had imagined.

Really concerned about the sweaty windows we walked in and the smell was horrible. I got a sick feeling in my stomach, and knew that judging by the smell, look and feel of the place it was hazardous to my health. As I turned to BamaBeau to insist on going else where to eat, I caught the look in his eyes; he was like a little boy at Christmas time, eager to open all of his presents. I hadn’t the heart to tell him that it wasn’t Christmas, and none of those presents were for him. I decided to make the best of it, I will get lots of chicken and salad and it will be great.

Just so everyone who is reading this knows, I really, really did try as hard as I could to like it. My insides squirmed when the server ran out of salad, and he pull out a trash bag and slapped some more of it in to the serving bowl, I asked for some of that because I was afraid where the other stuff came from; and if I got sick I would know it was because that salad had been in a trash bag. I looked down ahead to see if there was chicken like BamaBeau promised, and noticing big sliver pot I just knew it was there, for me to devour (although, it probably had e-coli or something). I thought I would make an effort and eat something I didn’t know about, after all BamaBeau tried liked, it must be good, right? Having finally reached the silver pots at the end of the serving line I hungrily looked inside, and do you know what they didn’t have in them? Chicken! Sad and disappointed I settled with some questionable looking sausage sauce.

We ended up sitting in a secluded room on squatty chairs around a little table, which I kind of liked, but would have loved if it was cleaner. While we were eating the employees would keep coming in and going behind a current and changing. In one instant a women went to change and came out a man.

Admittedly, I have never known any real hippies, I don’t know much about vegan food, organic food or whatever the crap they were serving us. So if you are a vegan or hippy or a vegetarian please know I applaud you for having the stomach to eat this kind of food. I, however, am not use to it. Let me tell you my friends, the food had no salt or seasoning in it whatsoever, its texture was nauseating and I truly don’t think that was real sausage. With hope that the salad would suffice me until I go some real food inside me, I took a bit. That was a mistake. It wasn’t salad at all!! In fact all it contained was welted leafs with plain vinegar!! Puke! Bluah! So there I sat practically on the ground with a plate full of foul food while Smurf and BamaBeau tell me that the hippies don’t like others to waste food. All I wanted was some chicken. What a horrible place! I pointed out to BamaBeau that there was no chicken, he then said, “Well, the menu does change sometime.” It would have been nice to know to that, hello!

Thank goodness my roommate D was having the same feelings as I was. When we finally got out of the One World Café, D and I went to go get some real food.

That is my side of what went down in the One World Café. Am I glad I went to Salt Lake with my friends? Yes. Am I sad I went to the One World Café? You bettcha. Do I still consider BamaBeau a friend? Well… of course. Will I think twice before going to a place he thinks is “wonderful”? I’d be stupid not to.

To whom it may concern:

I'm going to California!!! Woohooo!!!!!!!! I just got all of my shifts covered!! I am going camping on the Beach! I have never done that. I will be going with my best friends and we are going to have the time of our life! You want to know why? Because we are SO cool!!!! Booya!!!! California here I come!!!

Here's to you Confessor

The other day I was reading the Confessor’s blog; and it got me thinking. I have something to confess. I bet you all are thinking, “Big deal, we all have something to confess”. But in my case it involves the Smurfs, Gravy, and The 100 hour board. Before I confess to this act I find it essential to give you a little bit of a background as to what events led to this covert scheme, that myself and two other accomplices have done.

It all started when Smurfs and Gravy were roommates. The two were so roguish that they did some crazy things to my roommates and me. Including: leaving a Taco Bell cup full of urine setting on the back of our toilet repeatedly, and breaking into our house one Sunday and taking our microwave, Christmas tree, TV, VCR, DVD player, and some food that was in the fridge. Now, I have to admit looking back I find those jokes to be quite funny. Man, they sure got us. Well, from our standpoint at the time, it was not funny, because it all happened one after another in a short amount of time. We were kind of annoyed but, went along with it until; Gravy planted a cup full of chocolate frosting and toilet paper on the back of the toilet. Yeah, I know it’s funny I thought it was great at the time and honestly, I laughed.

My roommate and I went to workout late one night and we got to talking, it wasn’t fair that the guys were having all this fun at our expense. We wanted to get them back, for everything they had done to us. We knew who we were dealing with. It had, to be one prank that would make up for all those things they did to us, it had to be covert, and the timing had to be just right. So for the next few weeks K, and I brained stormed. We had loads of ideas. We finally decided we wanted to do something with packing peanuts. After shopping around we decided the best way for us to get a large amount of peanuts would be to buy them from eBay. We had them mailed to one of our friends that didn’t live with us. So we kept planning and plotting. Smurf was always hanging out with H till late at night (at our apt.) so K, and I started going to workout at like 1 am and made sure that Smurf new it was normal for us to leave the house at that time. We learned Smurf’s work schedule, and Gravy’s schedule. Our prank was starting to get really complex and we needed another person, but whom could it be? It couldn’t be H, because Smurf was to close to her and would be able to tell if she was lying right away, and she would be the first person Smurf would accuse, so she had to be left out of our plans completely. We decided on letting D in on our scheme. But she had to be tested before we could fully trust her. K, and I came up with a juicy story, and I told it to D, and then K, tried to get it out of her. She passed. So then D started working out with us late at night. We even dropped by the Smurfs and Gravy’s house for a “visit” so we could scope out the scene. We finally had it all planed out. Now, we just had to wait for the perfect opportunity. Gravy was starting quite a stir with the board at that time. He did a prank to… I believe Latro's house and the board was upset, (and I believe they were threatening to get him back). That was our cue. We gathered all of our materials and loaded them up into K’s jeep, and told H and Smurfs that we were going to work out (we really did go workout just so we would have an alibi). After we were sure Smurf returned home and was sound asleep we parked our vehicle a block away set out on our attack. We carried the three large bags of packing peanuts, and a large cardboard we had prepared to put over the door. Duct taping the cardboard to the doorframe we began to fill the gap between to door and cardboard with packing peanuts all the way to the top. And once that was successfully done we went home. Knowing Gravy would be the first one out the door in the morning, he would open it and all the peanuts would fall into the house. Haha!

Both Smurf and Gravy thought that the board did it, and never questioned us about it. Until this very day they have no idea it was us. My favorite part about this prank is that it took a great deal of planning, and we never got caught. We have done a couple other pranks on them and they didn’t even suspect us. It felt good to get them back. And it was important for them not to know who did it because we knew they would fight back (the last thing we wanted to do was get into war with these pranksters). Now, I would like to just think of ourselves as even. Smurf, you shouldn't feel any need to get me back. Right?

Lesson to be learned: Never underestimate Wiggle.

Dumb Worm by Wiggle Worm

When I was a junior in high school, I wrote a poem for English class expressing my hatred for dead fried worms on the sidewalk. I ended up getting an A for the poem. Then last night while I was enjoying a game of Loaded Questions, we were asked to write a poem. So I wrote this one down. Smurf suggested I put this on my blog. Keep in mind that the poem I wrote for class was better than this. Here goes:

Dumb worm frying on the sidewalk;

Doesn’t he know how sick that is;

As he lies there burnt to a crisp.

Yuck!

I hate that dumb worm!

Just to name off a few...

Hey friends! Last year I made a list of things I want to do and experience. I decided to publish this list so that I won't loose it (like I have many time before). If any of you want to do any of these things with me, let me know. I love to do things more than once, so even if the list shows I have already done something it doesn’t mean I won’t want to do it again.

Things I’ve done:

Hiked the Y (5 times)

Tubing down Provo River

Camping with friends

See the SLC temple lights

Played pool

Went ice skating

Went to a smoke-free bowling alley

Hiked all the way up a mountain and back down in one night

Went to a comedy show

Got into some trouble

Hiked up a waterfall

Tried new restaurants

Learned how to change a tire by myself

Went canoeing

Went to a concert

Christmas caroling

Threw a lot of parties

Things I want to do:

Go horseback riding

Snow tubing

Snow boarding

Go on a cruise

Hike the grand canyon (or any canyon)

Planetarium

Watch a play(s)

Read a lot of book I have never read

Play miniature gulf

Go to Lagoon

Go to Seven peaks

Get a massage

Hang glide

Rafting

Fishing

Manti pageant

Throw a lot more parties

Audition for a play

See a shower of shooting stars

Buy a Venus Flytrap

"...Smile that frown away"

"If you chance to meet a frown, do not let it stay, just quickly turn it upside down and smile that frown away."

So I am back, almost. After a few weeks of stress, and depression, I am starting to pull back up. I decided to stop concentrating on the fact that my sister is making some wrong decisions in her life; my mom, who has a blood disease, a bone rotting disease, chronic fatigue, and fibromyalgia; my imperfections; and the fact that my friends are all really super busy with school and boyfriends right now.

I’ve just come to realize (again in my life) that there is nothing I can do to stop all of these things from happening, nothing. These things are there whether I like it or not. And if these things are going to be there no matter what- I might as well be happy.

Monday morning was the turning point for me. I woke up crying from depression (I don’t do that. Ever.) As I was driving to school, I thought to myself, “Self, you can’t be sad in front of the children. You gotta buck up, for them.” With that I said a prayer and asked for these horrible feelings to go away. And I made a conscious effort to be happy. It was hard at first but as we picked the children up one by one, I hugged each of them and told them that I loved being their teacher, and that I thought they were really great. One child said that he wished he was my teacher. Through out the remainder of the day children would just randomly come and give me a hug and tell me that they loved me. My spirit was lifted. I am so grateful for my job and all the children in my life.

Work at the library wasn’t bad for me either, I was shelving books when a co-worker came up to me and greeted me cheerfully. She then expressed how happy she was, and how things were stressful for her but she was going to be happy no matter what. Wow, what a positive attitude. I use to have one of those. I am getting a feel for what it was like to be positive again. I am starting to feel a lot better. Then last night a group of my friends who I care for so much made time out of there busy schedules to hang out with me, it meant a lot to me. I always knew they cared for me, but I allowed myself to get so depressed for so long that I didn't see it. I can see it now though. I would just like to thank my friends, for the words of encouragement, and showing your love. There are no words to express my gratitude. I don’t know why the Lord blesses me with so much, I feel like I don’t deserve it. Anyway, I just want you to know that I am 95% back to my old happy self. There are some left over feelings I am trying to get rid of but by the end of the week I plan on being fully restored, until then, good morning, good afternoon, and good night. ;)

The Day the Smurfs Moved

Today I helped the Smurfs move. Yes, I realize you are wondering how I did this. To accomplish such an unfathomable task I had to called for back up and let me tell you my friends I needed it. With Jokey handing me gift boxes and saying “get ready for a surprise” while I am loading the car with his crates full of toilet paper and other gags, I didn’t even knew existed. Grumpy giving me sass telling me how much he hates to move. Meanwhile, Baker is chasing Greedy because he stole the lunch that Baker was trying so hard to make for us. Harmony and Painter were at it because Harmony was trying to walk across the room while playing his trumpet he bumped into Painters “materpizzas”. >SIGH<

FINALLY, Papa Smurf came along and asked Jokey to stop giving me his special gift boxes, Greedy forcibly gave back the food he took from Baker and Painter realized that Harmony bumping into him made and actual improvement to his “masterpizza”. Papa Smurf told Vanity he could keep his hand mirror out of the box if he stayed out of the bathroom so we could pack his stuff. Then Papa asked Smurfette to pick a bouquet of pink flowers for the new house, so Toasteroven could help me. Boy was I glad Papa Smurf showed up. I thought I was going to go crazy with all the chaos that was going on.

Anyway, we got the Smurfs safely moved and they are happily living in their new surroundings. Even though it was a hard task to move the Smurfs, I am going to miss having the Smurfs live so close to me. With their smurfy smurf song: “tra-la-lala-la-la-lala-la-la….” But, it’s not the end of the world, I do know where they live and Papa Smurf said I could come and visit anytime I wanted. And that makes me so smurf happy I could throw up. The End.

A Start of a New Year

Happy New Year! As I look back over the last year, events that happened to me, friends I made, friends that have left and moved on, family, and myself growth; I realize I have grown up a lot. Last year I had some hard things I had to face and endure. I remember wanting to give it all up. Not necessarily "off myself" but simply give up. I wished I could just go to sleep and wake up when things got better. Now, looking back on it, I realize I could have had it a lot worse, but, I thought I could not survive the things I was going through. However, my Heavenly Father blessed me with a great family, amazing friends and a ward that helped me get through my trials. I found that going through the things I did, helped me with myself confidence, and my out look on life. I now see that without those trials, I wouldn't have the faith and trust in my Heavenly Father that I do now. I know that he loves me and wants the best for me.

Don't go thinking I had a total and complete awful year, because I didn't. I went to my first concert, the Barenaked Ladies, with a guy who is now one of my best friends. I also survived an avalanche at Bridal Veil Falls with my friends, celebrated Chocolate day. Threw a lot of great parties; went tubing down the Provo River; got a promotion at a job I absolutely love, and got a second job that I have been wanting for over a year and half now. I was also introduced to the 100 hour board (by the way there are many intelligent and wonderful people writing for the board and I am glad to have them as my friends).

I am grateful for what I went through and wouldn’t trade any of my experiences for anything. Overall, seeing the outcome of the year 2004 in my life, I would say I had a really great year. I feel that some big changes are about to take place in my life. I am somewhat cautiously optimistic about how these changes will affect me but I look foreword to see what this year has to offer me. And I would just like to say, "Bring it on!"